Hey.

Hey Blog whats up.
I just have one thing to say and that is
why is jm.org down when I need it most
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ok time to listen to into the airwaves on repeat forever
Jessa

I wish I had an airport, somedays.

Hey world, ready for a rant?

So my whole life, I've been a pretty quiet kid. I try to just go with the flow, not make a big deal of anything or whatever. So as we got older, of course, people, "my friends", started to use me. Now I'm not stupid or naive. I knew people walked all over me because I didn't stand up to them. It didn't really bother me, and it still doesn't, it's just how some people are and it's my own fault. But sometimes I get so angry at how my so called friends treat me. They think they can be rude to me and tell me things that hurt. Ever since the beginning of high school, my elementary school friends have been kind of drifting away. I've made a lot of new friends and still have pretty much all of my friends at my old school. But there's just a small group of friends, girls and guys, who are starting to ignore me. They constantly exclude me, just a little thing here and there, a lunch one day, you know, a conversation about a party that they went to. We used to text and IM all the time, and now the only texts I ever get from them is "Do you know when our math test is" or "What are the answers to the chem homework". I really don't want to care about them. They're just high school friends who's names I'm sure I'll forget in a couple of years, but it still sucks to see them into their university boyfriends, and their sketchy parties. Don't get me wrong- there's a few girls and a guy who remain my best friends. But it would just be nice to get, maybe a hello in the hallway or something every once in a while.

You know what else makes me so mad? When friends ditch me to hang out with guys. Who are greasy, and terrible for them, nonetheless. I can honestly say that I would never, ever do that to them. So why should I have to deal with all this crap?

Sorry if that was just a mess of words. It feels good to get that out into the open.

driving+sunset=poetry

I just have to write it down somewhere.

now the sun bleeds red
and so shines the moon
you love me
and I love you

haha, alright. I might continue it later.

swim for your life.

I find I've been listening, living to Swim lately as everything seems to be building around me. I'm going to take it back to basics, I think. Take it day by day. Enough of the balancing act. Enough tiptoeing around issues and people and being ignored. Enough of staying home and building walls.

Enough.


// Also, ignore the formatting problems. Working on it.

Because it's Christmas and this is where you need to be.

Ahh, holidays. Got out Friday afternoon, after a pretty chill week. Had three tests cancelled, because of all the goings on at school. (Being one of my teachers is missing and one of my classmates died from cancer. It was such a sin, the whole school was kind of down for a while. Well, still is really.) All the teachers were just so exausted and stressed about Mr. Banfeild and stuff that we just watched movies all week, pretty much. It sucks to see my school, which is usually so active and spirited just so low-key right before Christmas. Hopefully things start looking up, because as a community I don't think we can take many more memorial services.

So everything's wrapped and ready :). I really love this time of year. Everyone just seems so happy to spend time with each other, especially my friends. I swear I've got about nine breakfasts and gift exchanges, etc, in the next couple of days. Gets me out of the house I suppose.

So all in all, things are going pretty good. I know I haven't updated this blog in so long. Maybe it'll be one of my New Year's Resolutions.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Moving on was a chore I was never quite ready for

Way to not blog ever, there Jessa. Just been so busy. The schoolwork is intense. I've had a math exam, three term projects, and two essays. I've been working on the weekend nights, which sucks, but my shift will be over December 13th :). It's usually only until eight or nine anyway. Well I saw twilight and realized that I haven't talked about here yet... if you don't want to listen then plug your ears! Wait...

So I actually liked it! We went to the mall at around 12:15 last Thursday, and I got mostly all my christmas shopping done, went for coffee with my friend, went to piano for an hour, went BACK to the mall and starting lining up at 7ish. We were first in line, naturally. I bought a Dr. Pepper, and it randomly decided to explode over everything... I reached my arm out to get it away from me, and stuck it right into another girl who was writing a paper, I felt terrible. SO TWILIGHT (I get so off track) was greatish. I guess it was so much like the book that I liked it. Cinematastically (yeah yeah I know) it wasn't that great, and the acting was all around terrible. But nevertheless I liked it :P

Well later on I'm going to post my December playlist. It's going to be very Christmas-y. So beware.

I'm miles from where you are

Finally some good times this week :) Including but not limited to:

1. Twilight. Thursday night. First open showing in North America. Awww yeuh. Now I'm pretty sure it's going to suck but I don't even care. I like the book and I'm going to love waiting in line for hours, taking pictures, reading books, eating candy.
2. School holidays. Half day Thursday for parent-teacher interviews and PD day Friday. YES.
3. Christmas shopping. After half-day Thurs. Before movie.
4. 'You Found Me' - The Fray. Thursday.
5. Megan's party. Includes: Cobra Starship dancing, A Walk To Remember, trips to Jerimiah's, sitting on the roof, and a lot of Starbursts.
6. 24 movie- Sunday night.

It's'a gonna be a wonderful week, I'm thinkin.