All I know is I'm done acting

I think my life works in threes. The year that was terrible, AKA 2007, contained 3 life changing things that really made my life kind of horrible for a while. I was freaking out all the time, unhappy, you know. The works. So lately, this has been happening again. So far there's been two pretty terrible things happening, and I find myself waiting for a third. This is very unrational, I'm aware. Maybe I should like, do something about it?

Yeah. I won't let myself fall into something like that again. (This post makes no sense, I know, I'm just talking to myself. Carry on.) I'm going to do something about it. After Christmas when things slow down I'm going to get out there. I'm going to stop holing myself up worrying. I don't care. I'll be the same person, just, I don't know. Less inhibited. Maybe I'll go out with Kate to her crazy parties. (I won't be crazy, I'll just.. go.) I'll go to after-parties. I'll spend my money instead of constantly saving it for something I don't even know about yet. I'll wear eyeliner. I'll act my age instead of eighty. I'll blast music. I won't care if people call it 'weird' because they listen to Tila Tequila. Take pictures, make friends, have a life. I'll have stories to tell.

Take this as a wicked early New Year's Resolution.