Hey.

Hey Blog whats up.
I just have one thing to say and that is
why is jm.org down when I need it most
fmlfmlfmlfmlfml
ok time to listen to into the airwaves on repeat forever
Jessa

I wish I had an airport, somedays.

Hey world, ready for a rant?

So my whole life, I've been a pretty quiet kid. I try to just go with the flow, not make a big deal of anything or whatever. So as we got older, of course, people, "my friends", started to use me. Now I'm not stupid or naive. I knew people walked all over me because I didn't stand up to them. It didn't really bother me, and it still doesn't, it's just how some people are and it's my own fault. But sometimes I get so angry at how my so called friends treat me. They think they can be rude to me and tell me things that hurt. Ever since the beginning of high school, my elementary school friends have been kind of drifting away. I've made a lot of new friends and still have pretty much all of my friends at my old school. But there's just a small group of friends, girls and guys, who are starting to ignore me. They constantly exclude me, just a little thing here and there, a lunch one day, you know, a conversation about a party that they went to. We used to text and IM all the time, and now the only texts I ever get from them is "Do you know when our math test is" or "What are the answers to the chem homework". I really don't want to care about them. They're just high school friends who's names I'm sure I'll forget in a couple of years, but it still sucks to see them into their university boyfriends, and their sketchy parties. Don't get me wrong- there's a few girls and a guy who remain my best friends. But it would just be nice to get, maybe a hello in the hallway or something every once in a while.

You know what else makes me so mad? When friends ditch me to hang out with guys. Who are greasy, and terrible for them, nonetheless. I can honestly say that I would never, ever do that to them. So why should I have to deal with all this crap?

Sorry if that was just a mess of words. It feels good to get that out into the open.

driving+sunset=poetry

I just have to write it down somewhere.

now the sun bleeds red
and so shines the moon
you love me
and I love you

haha, alright. I might continue it later.

swim for your life.

I find I've been listening, living to Swim lately as everything seems to be building around me. I'm going to take it back to basics, I think. Take it day by day. Enough of the balancing act. Enough tiptoeing around issues and people and being ignored. Enough of staying home and building walls.

Enough.


// Also, ignore the formatting problems. Working on it.